Love Is A Verb

Sweet memories of a great weekend with Danny and our friends at TC marriage weekend back in 2016. I was about 2.5 months pregnant with Joella 💕💕💕💕 I’ve never shared this publicly before (although I remember thinking when the time was right it would be part of our testimony one day to help other couples), but for some reason it has been on my heart tonight to share. If you just looked at this picture, you would have no idea that several months before this marriage conference, Danny and I had literally fought all of hell in our relationship. If the enemy had his way, our marriage would have been over and there certainly would have never been a Joella. And we certainly didn’t know that God was going to call Danny home just a little over 15 months later. I learned so much about praying the Word for my family, fasting and trusting God during that time. It was truly a miracle that Danny did not walk away from God, me, Jameson and church. I thank God for a Pastor that stood with us through that time and refused to let either one of us become a trophy in the devil’s showcase. Pastor spoke briefly about this at Danny’s funeral. We came to a point where we both agreed that divorce was not ever going to be an option and God truly begin to heal every broken piece and restore our relationship into something more beautiful and precious than it had ever been. Love was not just an emotion; it was a verb. It was a choice we became more intentional with every single day.

A few months into that process, I found out I was pregnant with Joella. She was such a tangible blessing of the healing and miracle God performed in our marriage. There’s not a day that goes by when I look at my sweet girl that I don’t remember what God did for us. I found a letter that Danny wrote to me that was talking about how much he loved our family and he said “I would have been a fool to walk away from all that (our family); all the sin in the world could not even come close in comparison...on our worst days, I still love you....we are going to make it, I promise...I refuse to let the devil tear us apart or our family....I will not let that happen...I love you with all my heart and I’m glad God blessed me with the best...”

Marriage is constant work, but it is absolutely worth it to fight for your marriage and your family. Above all give God His place there. I honestly don’t know how people even attempt it without God.

I don’t know what you might be going through right now, but don’t give up. Philippians 1:6 says “Be confident of this very thing, that he which begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ”

There’s nothing worth missing out on God’s perfect will. As I sit here tonight with my sweet girl soundly sleeping beside me, I’m forever thankful the enemy didn’t succeed in destroying us. I am so blessed for the love I experienced in my life and still do through my beautiful babies and Jesus. ❤️